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this one is for muireann

October 25, 2016

this is so damn hard to write,

but we have lost our sweet and sassy girl muireann.

our hearts are so heavy with this sudden and inexplicable loss.

when we welcomed muireann to the fuzzy slippers farm this past spring

we had great hopes of her sharing years of retired broodmare companionship

with her best friend rose, who traveled here from ireland with her

to be foundation mares for the irish rose farm in fort collins.

when the irish rose closed this year,

charlie and jan asked us if we would take muireann into our herd

to live out her years with the six other gypsy horses we had gotten from them.

(and that silly little paint, sunny.)

of course we said yes.

it’s what we do.

and as hard as this hurts,

i would do it again in a heartbeat.

because we loved her.

in honor of muireann,

here’s a little recap of the time we shared.

i really believe that she had a happy life here.


the day she came felt like christmas.


she made herself right at home in the turnout.


muireann was never without her best friend, rose.


these two were inseparable.


muireann took her turns in the “workout” rotation…

which generally meant going for a walk to graze.


although occasionally she was called upon to flex and bend.


yes, it could be a grueling workout routine…


she loved all of the attention showered on her by family members.


muireann seemed particularly fond of having her own “room” all to herself at night.

that, and being the first one fed morning and night.


yes, when the herd got sorted out at feeding time,

the others would look at us dumbfounded as they waited for us

to prepare muireann’s hot mash.

they couldn’t believe we actually “cooked” for her…


they weren’t as worried about the occasional alfalfa nosegay.

they all get those little treats from time to time.


a favorite summertime activity was hanging out with rose under the lean-to.


and those special times when she had the turnout all to herself,

and with that the luxury of taking time out from grazing for a delightful roll.

if you’d like, you can click to see a segment of her pasture antics *HERE*.


as autumn settled in around us, muireann continued to enjoy those grazing walks.

since sara is working on brace-free mobility in her knee recovery, she and muireann

got out to the field every day last week.


this was taken just last wednesday.

muireann already had the thickest and longest winter coat in the herd.

although we now have a stack of horse blankets,

we were fairly certain that this girl would have plenty of hair to keep her warm.

our lives were forever changed on saturday.

i cannot fathom this void, this emptiness.

i can only hope that somewhere, in an emerald green field of deep grass,

muireann stepped off the rainbow bridge to see her son arden,

nuala and laochan, and temple bar galloping towards her and that, fleet of foot,

she joyfully ran out to meet them.

and until i see them again and ask about that reunion,

i shall remember her as she is in this picture:


standing at her gate as the sun dips low in the sky,

waiting for the feed wagon with her constant companions rose, otis, and sam.

i love you, muireann,

always and forever.

* * * * * * * * *

i’d like to thank charlie and jan cox for the opportunity to welcome muireann into our hearts and our herd.

it was a hard phone call to make early on sunday morning.

they were loving and supportive and knew we had done everything in our power.

this i know to be true.



she is knee deep in emerald grass,

just as she deserves to be.




18 Comments leave one →
  1. Mary Harte permalink
    October 25, 2016 2:39 am

    I am so sorry to hear this Jan. I have a story to tell you about Ashley in the afterlife with horses.

    • sassysistersink permalink*
      October 26, 2016 6:39 pm

      thank you, Mary. I look forward to hearing about Ashley and horses. very much.

  2. Joanna permalink
    October 25, 2016 3:40 am

    Bless everyone’s hearts..EVERYONE..

    • sassysistersink permalink*
      October 26, 2016 6:40 pm

      i thank you, Joanna, and sincerely appreciate your reaching out during this troubling time. it makes a difference.

  3. October 25, 2016 12:03 pm

    Oh Janet.
    I’m so sad at this news.
    Muireann was lucky to live out the rest of her life on your farm. You were blessed, too.
    Look at all the smiles, the doting care, the laughter and love that came with her! Those memories to hold forever. And I think, above all, not only did you give her a loving last home, but she really needed to be with Rose again before she left our world.
    Gigantic hug from me. Good and tight.

    • sassysistersink permalink*
      October 26, 2016 6:44 pm

      yes, Lynn– we were blessed. Rose has had a hard time the past few days. she is often apart from the rest, mourning in her own way. those girls shared a history and provided a comfort to one another that we both understand and will never understand. this is a time of great aching for all of us.
      thank you for the hug. i needed that.

  4. Laurie permalink
    October 25, 2016 6:12 pm

    i’m sitting here in tears … and i can’t reach across the miles to simply hug you. you’ve been in my thoughts without fail. she knew the love of her herd in the end, both equine AND human. love you and your huge heart! always xx

    • sassysistersink permalink*
      October 26, 2016 6:46 pm

      i know that you are with me, that you can feel the ache and the heavy heart for me and with me. i am still stunned. it simply cannot be, and yet..

  5. October 25, 2016 11:40 pm

    I know how hard it is when our four-legged friends must go on without us. Sending much sympathy to all who loved her.

    • sassysistersink permalink*
      October 26, 2016 6:49 pm

      oh, Vicki, how kind of you to come and share your sympathy here with me. Muireann left such a gaping hole, an emptiness that truly is as big as a horse. every time i look out the window i expect to see her out there waiting. i appreciate you.

  6. sageandspirit permalink
    October 25, 2016 11:46 pm

    Janet, I am so, so sorry to hear this news. Holding you and everyone at the fuzzy slippers farm in my heart.

    • sassysistersink permalink*
      October 26, 2016 6:53 pm

      thank you, Julie. I appreciate your big heart wrapped around us all. today i am home alone and feel this weight as a staggering burden, but one that i carry willingly to have been able to have Muireann in my life. thank you for helping to lighten the load.

  7. October 27, 2016 1:38 am

    you are my heroes, you and rose.
    with much love….xoxoxo

    • sassysistersink permalink*
      October 27, 2016 2:05 am

      so much love back to you, Marie xx
      we feel and are grateful for your love and support.

  8. Karen permalink
    October 30, 2016 9:23 pm

    Such beautiful photos of Muireann and her team. It certainly seems that She lived a blessed life with you all at Fuzzy Slippers Farm. I hope that in time your pain will ease and that the love of your family and animals will help get you all through this sad time. Love to you all especially Rose xoxo

    • sassysistersink permalink*
      November 1, 2016 3:53 pm

      thank you so very much, Karen. it’s been a little over a week now, and i’m finding that the pain has certainly gone deep. the other animals, especially Rose, are helping enormously but this is a loss that i simply have to sit with however long that takes. having caring friends like you eases the burden, without question. xoxo

  9. mary kelly permalink
    November 2, 2016 8:22 pm


    I am SO sorry to hear about Muireann. Did I tell you I lost my old mare 2 years ago? Although, at 32 years of age, the beautiful old mare couldn’t really be said to be lost. She’d had as good life as a horse can get. We have a saying at our barn: “Wild Oaks — a GREAT place to be Horse!” And I know I can say the same of Fuzzy Slippers. A great place to BE. Period. My heart goes out to you. I know how much it hurts. Thank you for your online tribute, beautifully said and illustrated. Go to your youngest horse and hug his/her face. And feel grateful.


    • sassysistersink permalink*
      November 6, 2016 10:04 pm

      I did– I wrapped up Cormac’s face and held him close. for you, for me, for Cormac, for Rose (he is her baby), for Muireann. for losing what you love and continuing to love anyway. even when it hurts.

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